Be Careful of What You Wish For

I’m just gonna write a short post today. Hmm..life’s so busy right now. But I really miss my blog that I’ve abandoned for a few weeks.

Well..well. Be careful of what you wish for because somehow it might become a reality. I remember I’ve ever wished to stay here for a longer period. Yeah, finally I made a decision not to go back to Indonesia (at least) until the end of the year. This is a final decision. And the other thing is related to my scientific life. I wrote a sentence in a microsoft word document last year about a kind of thing that I should accomplish this year. I’m on my way in realizing that dream, by the way. If I can’t realize this dream, because of any reasons, it’s okay. I’ve already gained some new experiences here. I’ve been given such an opportunity to conduct a research in a group that consist of people from various nationalities. And this is one of the most precious thing that ever happened in my life.

God is great!

one adventurous day in Lake District

This trip was actually initiated by my friend, Dinis. She told me that she really wanted to visit Lake District, a countryside surrounded by lakes (yeah, it’s obvious by its name, isn’t it?) Few months ago, Indonesian society arranged a trip to this place, but unfortunately I couldn’t go because of some reasons. This time I didn’t even think twice before I said “yes” to my friend’s invitation. I needed a refreshing. I needed a little break. So we set April 28th as the date of our trip. It was four of us – Dinis, Naina, Charlotte, and Me- who went for this trip.

We planned to catch the morning train from Newcastle to Carlisle. That morning, first bad luck happen to me. By the time we reached the Central Station, I realized that I left my railcard at home. This is a real disaster, since I paid for a student ticket and if (just in case) I couldn’t show my railcard when they asked for it, they were gonna fine me. So, to avoid the worst thing, I went back to my dorm to take my railcard. The result was, we missed the morning train and had to wait for the next train to Carlisle. First bad luck of the day! And I was the one to be blamed.

The journey to Carlisle took almost 2 hours, but the view along the railway was really nice. Lots of greenery stuffs. We reached Carlisle at about 11 am and took a walk around the city while waiting for our bus to Kenswick. Carlisle is a peaceful city, in my opinion. I mean, compared to Newcastle, this city is more “laid-back”. A typical UK rural city.

At about 12.30 pm we continued our journey to Kenswick by bus. We bought a one day pass for GBP 10. I have to mention this since that ticket was our savior for the rest of the day. We supposed to straightly catch another bus to Brockhole when we arrived in Kenswick. The silly thing happened. When we were just arrived in Kenswick, we saw that bus to Brockhole was about to leave. Okay, no chance for us to catch that bus. We need to wait for the next bus. But there’s always a good thing behind the bad thing. We had lunch in Kenswick. It was a pretty nice tuna melt toastie, by the way.

And the journey continued. We took the bus to Brockhole. I never imagine that it actually still quite far from Kenswick. We needed another 1.5 hour journey to reach Brockhole. Another silly thing happened. We missed the Brockhole bus stop. So we stopped at the next bus stop and the driver told us that actually he shouted and called for us when the bus stopped at Brockhole. Since we sit upstairs, we didn’t hear. And yeah, we missed the bus stop and had to walk down the road to Brockhole. Hooray! *thumbs down* Lucky us, there was an old man who told us that Brockhole is located about 2.5 miles from the place we stop and it was better for us to take any bus for there. Wow, he was like an angel in disguise. We followed his suggestion and waiting for the bus. About 10 minutes after, the bus came. Fyuhh..finally we reached Brockhole at 4 pm and that place will close at 5 pm. We only had an hour to enjoy the nice view there. The best one hour we’ve ever had. I felt the sensation of being faraway from the crowd and everything that bother my mind. Though for just a little while. We took some pictures. We enjoyed the weather. Thank God, it was sunny. The weather forecast predicted that it was going to be cloudy that day.

                                                                            

    

We went back at 5 pm and reached Kenswick at about 6 pm. We knew that the bus to Carlisle will leave at 6.25 pm so we decided to go inside the supermarket. We were wondering why there were no bus going to Carlisle, until we saw one left the bus station and the driver changed the destination to Carlisle. We were stunned at our place. That was the last bus to Carlisle that day. I thought we have to spend a night in Kenswick. That was the worst case scenario. My friend said : “let’s run! maybe we can catch the bus at the next stop”. I let out the maximum capacity of my energy to catch the bus, while suddenly my friend realized that the bus was straightly go to Carlisle. Haha…who want to run from Kenswick to Carlisle?!? We started to feel hopeless. Seriously, I was thinking to find a place to spend the night and went back to Newcastle on the next day. But then, about 30 minutes later, a bus came. My friend, Charlotte, explained our situation to the bus driver and asked him whether he had any suggestion for us on how to get back to Carlisle. Fortunately, he let us to go on the bus and he took us to Penrith. There was a bus leaving to Carlisle from Penrith. We were saved!

We arrived at Carlisle at 8ish and decided to have dinner there. Nando’s (our favorite restaurant) was located just across the railway station. Okay, so we went there and spent some time to chill out before continue our journey back to Newcastle. We caught the 9 pm train. I thought I could take a rest in the train. But then I found out that there were some football supporters who were sitting in another coach of our train, and they kept shouting during the journey. Okay, forget sleeping! When the train reached Hexham – which is actually already close to Newcastle – a group of people (most of them were heavily drunk) went into the train and they sit in the same coach with us. We were a little bit terrified, honestly. But, still, we were trying to stay cool. Hehe.

We reached home at 11 pm. Safe and sound. Really. God involved in our trip. He sent us those nice people. The old man and the bus driver. What an amazing journey. That was one of the experience of living abroad that I’ll always remember in the rest of my life.

Things In Between My Research Life

Dorm-lab-campus cafetaria-lab-dorm. That’s my daily route lately. Finish the labworks at 7ish at night is becoming the usual thing for me lately. It’s been almost 10 weeks I’m doing a research here. I suppose to finish this research by early July. And honestly, lots of things are bothering my mind currently. Can I get enough good results from this research by the time I finish this? What will I do after this master program ends? I know, I’m not suppose to think about those kind of things right now. Sometimes, it’s better to let the destiny works in its own way.

I really love everything about my research, except that one person. Hmhf..talking about that person always bring up my temperament. It’s unethical, though, if I write the bad things about him here in this blog. So yeah, he’s just the one and only burden in my research. But overall, I love my research. Especially, last week. Maybe I should call it an Epic Week. I got good and bad results at once. Wasn’t it exciting? Haha.

Maybe other people think that spending a whole day inside the laboratory is one of the most boring things on earth. But for me, it is totally not. The best feeling in the world is when I discover something from my research. This is the career that I want, indeed.

Speaking about that person I mentioned before, I really hated him. But then today my friend told me this : “if a person do something bad to you, it doesn’t mean that you can do the same thing. he’s the one who suffer and he’s the loser. you want to be the winner, right? so, control your emotion” huh…hah..huh..hah. Let’s take a very deep breath!

So the point is, I love doing what I’m doing right now. I don’t want to allow any people to discourage me. And if God said so, everything is possible to happen. :)

Happy weekend, folks!

Photo Project #1 : A Glimpse of Newcastle

a little city in the north east of England, where I’m living now. I love everything about this city. And if I could make one wish, I would like to stay here a little bit longer. :)

introducing : gabriella’s photo project

I ain’t a pro photographer. I’m just a person who loves capturing anything around me with my camera. And beyond all of that, I love editing pictures.

Without ever realizing it, in fact I’ve already kept lots of pictures in my laptop. That’s why this idea came up in my mind. Why don’t I post photo-series in my blog every week with different themes? Sounds like a good idea, doesn’t it? I know, so many people out there have already done it. But, I don’t care. This is just for my personal pleasure. :)

7 April and that memory

a repost of  my Tumblr old post a few years ago. the year 2009, to be exact. today is the birthday of the person who was the subject in this post. I just gonna remind myself that I’ve ever developed that kind of feeling to him. Although now, the situation is different. We are living our lives in our own way. He’s already moved on with his life. Currently he has a quite stable job, obviously. and a girlfriend. And me, I’m currently happy with my life, pursuing my dreams and not really think about guys.

happy birthday to you!

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I Forgot the Feeling of Falling in Love

Gw udah lupa gimana rasanya jatuh cinta. Beneran deh, rasanya udah lama banget gw gak punya gebetan, kecengan atau semacamnya yg bisa bikin gw deg-degan gimanaaaa gitu.

Sampai suatu ketika, dia datang menyadarkan gw bahwa hidup ini punya sisi indah yang bisa selalu dinikmati. Hidup ini bukan semata-mata untuk mengejar kesuksesan dan keberhasilan. Hidup ini bukan untuk sepenuhnya dianggap sebagai beban.

Dia gak pernah ngomong berkoar-koar tentang kehidupan di depan gw. Dia gak pernah protes tentang kelakuan gw yang kadang suka nyebelin, yang kadang suka bikin panik orang. Tapi, dia nunjukkin semua itu dengan perilakunya yang konkrit. Dia nunjukkin bahwa it’s okay to laugh at your mistake, gak ada salahnya sekali-kali loe ketawain kesalahan yang udah loe lakuin. Gak ada salahnya juga kalau kita jalanin hidup ini dengan rileks. Dari dia gw belajar banyak, walaupun mungkin dia gak nyadarin hal itu. Mungkin yang dia tau, gw bisanya cuma nyela2 dia doang. Padahal di balik segala celaan gw buat dia, tersimpan kekaguman gw yang tulus buat dia. hehehe.

Honestly, gw banyak belajar dari dia untuk memandang hidup ini dengan lebih santai. Hahaha..looks like love’s in the air! Yeah, sekarang gw ngerasain lagi perasaan yang selama setahun lebih ini udah gak pernah gw rasain lagi sampe2 gw udah lupa gimana rasanya. The feeling of falling in love..hahahaha…waduh kayanya gw bener2 jatuh cinta sama dia nih..parah..parah..hei kamu tanggung jawab!!! hahaha…*just kidding

-27 Agustus 2009-

Indian Movies, I’m In Love

I’ve never watched Indian movies before. At least until my 3rd year of undergrad. In fact, I was kinda avoid watching Indian movies because of their (in my opinion) “cheesy” song and their typical scenes (you know, lovers running after each others and dancing around the trees). But, lately to be honest  I really enjoy Indian movies, if I can’t say I adore them. The first ever Indian movie that I watched and I found really good was “3 Idiots”. One of my college friends recommended it for me. Here, in UK I met a friend who is a crazy fan of Indian movies and she is also an Indian-Indonesian. lol. And she’s my source of Indian movies. Little by little, she turned me into an Indian movie addict.

So, in this post I’d like to write a kind of review of some Indian movies that I’ve watched. Well, just in case you want to try your luck watching Indian movies, you can get an idea on what to watch ;)

1. 3 Idiots

This is a story about 3 college best friends, Raju; Farhan; and Rancho. They are all engineering students who are studying engineering with different purpose. Among three of them, only Rancho who study engineering based on his passion. But just like any other young people, they fall in love, they have problems to be solved. Basically, they have to deal with their life. Their legendary motto is : “All is well”. Believe me, you will smile, laugh, and cry while watching this movie. I guarantee. This is a really nice movie that teach us about life. It’s a 3 hours-ish movie, by the way. But no worries, it won’t feel that long.

2. Zindagi Na Milegi Dobara (You Don’t Get Life a Second Time)

If you want to watch something musical, I think this will be the best choice. A story about 3 old best friends who decide to meet up again after some years loosing contact of each others. What do they do? They plan on travelling to Spain and having a road trip to celebrate Kabir’s bachelor party. They are forced to leave their routine activities during this road trip. For a month, they spend the days together. And some surprising things happen. One of them convince about an important issue in his life.  And finally this road trip make them know what they actually want in their lives. Since we only live once, just live it to the fullest. Do things that you want. I think that’s the message from the movie.  This is really recommended movie and the soundtrack is just too cool! And also there are some poems you can find all over this movies. I’ve just read the translation and it was beautifully written.

3. I Hate Luv Storys

This is a love story, indeed. The main role, Jay doesn’t believe in love. Even worse, he’s so apathetic with this thing called “love” but eventually he must surrender and admit that love does exist. Anyways, Imran Khan is kinda cute yeah?!?

4. Pyaar Impossible (Love is Impossible)

A story about a computer genius (well, a so-called “geek”) who fall in love with a popular girl. He keeps his feeling for 7 years because he just doesn’t have any guts to tell the girl what he really feels. The story is simple, but I don’t know why this movie is really touched me. Another good movie about a struggle in overcoming all obstacles to get your true love.

Movies, just like musics, are universal. As long as they’re good, no matter what language they are, they’re worth to be watched. :) So far, I’ve just watched less than 10 Indian movies and I’m impressed!

 

25.02.2012

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I know it’s too late to write something related to my birthday. But it’s better late than never, anyway. Well, my birthday was on the 25th February. Almost a month ago. I’m 24 years old now. Yeey! Yeah, I’m old. But I always young at heart. ;)

So, that was my first birthday in this land of Queen Elizabeth. It was fun, though. I arranged a small party in my dorm. We ate pizza, watched some series on tv. And of course have fun. I received so many presents. Hihi..happy..happy! My friends were also giving me a surprise birthday cake. They knew that I really love cupcakes and they bought a super big chocolate cupcake for me. Really, my birthday was so memorable. I wonder where in the world will I celebrate my next birthday. Please…not in Indonesia please. :D

24, eh? It is definitely not the age of innocence anymore. I have to be mature, literally. I have to start being an adult who is responsible for everything that I have chosen. I made some wishes before I blew the candle. One of them was to pass in every exams that I took. And amazingly I passed. :D . The other wishes is related to my future. I hope my other dreams will soon be realized. I want to explore the world. Hopefully, next year God will send me to other part of the world. Amen!

Thank you for all of the birthday wishes on FB, dear friends. Yeah, I know that nowadays people (especially friends in Indonesia) can only reach me through Facebook, right? ;)

The Winner Takes It All *)

Today, my research wasn’t going well. It’s worse than before. I’ve just realized that in the previous post I told you about my failed lab experiment. Well, what happened today was worse. But the amazing part is I don’t feel that useless anymore. I know, this is research. Everything can happen in the lab and sometimes I can’t even control them. Yesterday, all of my cells were alright, and suddenly this morning they were all *bummm* dead!  Nothing I can do, really. I won’t do any labworks until Monday.

And as usual, I love to relate anything that happen in my life with a particular song or a quotation. Few moments ago, when I was taking a short nap and listening to my iPod, it shuffled to this song titled “Va Todo Al Ganador” (“The Winner Takes It All”) by Il Divo. The lyrics are not really relevant to my situation, but some of them made me think that nothing can stop me from reaching my dream. This is just a little barrier that I’m sure I can pass safely.

I’m going to write the lyrics of that song that I found meaningful. For me.

the winner takes it all. the loser standing small

the winner takes it all. the loser has to fall. it’s simple and it’s plain, why should I complain?

a big thing or a small, the winner takes it all

hmm..so which one should I choose? to be the winner or the loser? of course I choose to be the winner. but, the winner has to loose many times before she turns out to be the winner. It needs a never ending trial to finally become the winner. I’m currently in the middle of that trial process. No, I don’t want to give up! The next few months will be hard for me. To be honest, I’ve never expected this before. But yeah this is life. Life will never be easy.

And oh by the way, I’ve finally received my exam result for all modules that I took last semester. I passed. Yea! See, no matter how cloudy my day there are still one or two things that make me feel grateful.

Welcome, March. I hope everything will going on smoothly this month. :)

*) “The Winner Takes It All” is a song that originally performed by ABBA in 1980. Il Divo covered that song under the title “Va Todo Al Ganador”.

lesson learned today

Today was a very bad day for me. I was literally start doing my first experiment. Yeah, I’ve started my research since last week, but today is the first day for me to treat my samples. And I made one stupid fatal mistake that affect all of the samples. It means, tomorrow I have to do it all over again. I feel really stupid and useless, you know.

I still can take a moral of the story from this kinda “incident”, though. I need to be really really really careful next time. I mustn’t lose concentration even only for a second. It’s been almost 2 years I didn’t do a real lab project, so it’s normal that I need to adjust myself again in the laboratory. I hope everything goes well tomorrow and the days after.

And you know what, when I went home this afternoon, there was people from Christian Society having an event near the sports centre. They gave cakes to people (including me) who were passing by. They stick a little paper that contain a line from the Bible, on top of each cake. Accidentally, on the cake that I took, there was this line.

The Lord is close to the broken-hearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit

I feel like,  that was God Himself who is trying to speak directly to me not to be afraid because He always be with me, even in my darkest time. This evening I also had a chit-chat with my friend. Apparently, she had a problem with her research as well. Then she told me this, “you know what, it’s better that you made mistake today rather than you make mistake later when you’ve gone that far with your research. at least, you learn something today.”

Okay then. This seems to be a quick post for me. I was down, honestly. But now I feel much better.

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